Well yesterday was a big day. A very close friend and colleague was ordained yesterday. I had the good sense to go. Yes things are changing. I am very happy that I made a good choice on this one. My friend Jane honored me by asking me to participate in the service. I only asked one question in the examination portion, but it meant that I processed and sat up front in the seat of honor. I must say, I didn't realize this would be the case. I was shocked to have this kind of honor. I didn't realize why that was happening until we processed into the church. I was treated as clergy for the first time. It was an amazing experience. Not all together comfortable. But very interesting.
I had one of the best seats in the house. I had a full view of my friend. I sat there and reflected on how I will feel on my ordination day. Will I be filled with gentle grace like Jane? Or will I be what my partner called "ordinandzialla," thrashing about and filled with anxiety. I hope I'll be like Jane.
I sat beside a clergy colleague from a neighboring town. As she watched the service unfold I could almost see the memories of her own ordination flash across her mind. It's important to remember, recall, review, reflect, relive....
This got me thinking about another Sunday, July 22nd in 1984. That was the date of my first twelve step meeting. I was given a seat of honor that Sunday as well. I arrived early and two guys were there making coffee and preparing for the meeting. They asked me my name, welcomed me, gave me a seat of honor. They sat me strategically on an old sofa and they pointed me out to others as they came into the meeting. I was the honored that day, the newcomer, the one who's just walked in the door. I haven't found it necessary to ever take another drink since that day.
So yesterday was my 23rd anniversary. Once again I sat in the seat of honor and witnessed miracles, my recovery and the ordination of a beloved friend. What a way to celebrate. Each marks a shift in life, a milestone, a turning point. Each marks a new way to be in the world, new responsibility, new hope, new joy, new life.
Thanks be to God.