Just so you know I haven't gone soft with that post on prayer I need to think out loud by writing about KJS's webcast today. First of all, it was a wonderful production. Very appealing to eye and ear. Jan Nunley was brilliant in her role. The bandwidth held up nicely, I got on the second time I tried and it was already in progress so the system was stretched to the limit for sure. Kudos to the production team it was a lovely internet experience.
KJS was so calming and pastoral that I actually found myself relaxing a bit. She struck a truly charitable tone, as always, toward those on the right and I felt lulled into a sense of security by her ever so measured responses that I wanted to interpret as valuing my gifts to the church. I know she's doing her best and unless you're a person who feels called to ordained ministry who happens to be GLBT with no intention of being celebate, I can understand why one would give her great marks for openmindedness and generosity. I even read one review that likened her call for patience on the part of those of us who continue to knock to the patience of the civil rights movement in the southern US in the 50's and 60's.
Let me just point out that it was mighty easy for white people to tell black folk they were trying to move to fast, that was what was causing the violence. (insert strong southern accent here) "Ya'll just gonna have to settle down and let folks take this easy. It's hard for people to change a whole way of life overnight." Notwithstanding these folks had been waiting for equality since the day they were captured in Africa and sold like cattle. How easy it is for heterosexual people to ask we homo's to "be patient" a bit longer. "We can't push this thing too fast, the church is just not ready." I've been hearing this since before women's ordination. Reckon how long we should be patient? Apparently into our next lifetime.
But I digress....While I don't want to violate KJS's call for charity and making assumptions that people's motives are good... I do wonder what she was thinking when she allowed as how our attitude toward all this might require a humorous response. Hmmm..... I'm not laughing about the seriousness of what all this means for GLBT people in the church. Only someone enjoying their privilege could even think such a thing. And I take serious exception to having my deep spiritual pain described as "neuralgia." Besides turning my real emotional/spiritual pain into a pathology it did intrigue me. And I think I've figured it out... I looked up the word:
Neuralgia: Pain along the course of a nerve.
I'm thinking she's heard the expression "you are on my last gay nerve" and misinterpreting it, as might be the case for a heterosexual unaccustomed to the lingo of the GLBT community, decided to consider it literally.
Ah well.... I am praying for her. I wouldn't be her for anything. She can't win. Nobody's going to be happy with what she does, that's for sure. So let's all pray for the sister.
Besides.... all this call for patience and loving kindness toward the right, without any specific naming of the barbaric role the church in Nigeria is playing in laws that violate human rights in any thinking person's mind, is getting on my last gay nerve.
It reminds me of a joke.... A man is riding a donkey and they go and go and go until finally the donkey wails "how much farther is it?" and the man says "patience jackass, patience." The way this joke goes is the person telling it just says this over and over and over and over until the person to whom it is being related finally asks how long this crazy "baffle gab" is going to go on... to which the person telling the joke says (in a most patronizing way) "patience jackass, patience."